One week ago my colleague and partner in the practice of pediatrics died after being involved in a horrendous car accident. There were lots of unanswered questions. He drove his car into the back of a truck parked on the side of the road. Did he fall asleep? Why him? Why now? He did so much good and brought physical healing to so many. Why? Why? Why?
It is never easy to deal with death. As doctors we are supposed to keep people alive. Our patients desire and expect us to restore their health and at the very least beat back the specter of death from overcoming them. In reality, the best a physician can do is delay the inevitable. Even this gives physicians too much credit, for it is God who enables us to provide physical healing and controls the number of our days. And yet, those who believe and those who do not ask, why, why, why!
When a doctor dies, we can say, “Look, for all his knowledge of medicine, he could not save himself, therefore, what hope is there for me?” In the same way Jesus was mocked by the chief priest and elders as He was dying on the cross. “He saved others,” they said, “but he can’t save himself! He’s the King of Israel! Let him come down now from the cross, and we will believe in him. He trusts in God. Let God rescue him now if he wants him, for he said, ‘I am the Son of God.’ ” (Matthew 27:41-43) Why? Why? Why?
But this is not the end of the story. On the third day after Jesus died, he rose from the dead, witnessed by many and remains alive today. As Jesus said to Thomas, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”
As Christian physicians, we are obligated to do our best and God entrusts us with the truth. We are reminded daily of our frailty and who is in control. Why we ask? So that we may reflect on the condition of our souls and those of our patients’, as well as our need for a Savior. It is only after believing in Christ and him crucified for our transgressions that we can have true hope and offer it to our patients. Our sadness will turn to joy knowing the peace that surpasses all understanding will bring healing to our souls and ultimately the restoration of our bodies.
Read 1 Corinthians 15.